Blahhhhhh

Dear world, I am a fucking idiot. I really really am.

I was supposed to be taking my afternoon nap earlier as I always do. And I thought I locked the effing door. But somehow, by some effing miracle, my aunt managed to open the door to my study room, WHERE I TAKE MY NAPS. I love my family, I really do, but sometimes, SOMETIMES, they can be really thick, as guilty as I feel saying this. I mean, if you see this human being sleeping in the room where she normally sleeps and it's HER study room, you should just get out of the room right? No, she entered my room and sat on the bed. I have a bed in the room but I usually sleep on the couch instead. Then I was surprised and I asked her whether I locked the door or not. She said no, but I thought I did. I really really thought I did. Then I expected her to leave the room anytime, but instead SHE SLEPT ON THE BED. SHE REALLY DID. She normally doesn't do that. ANYONE NORMAL WOULDN'T DO THAT. Because everyone knows, THIS IS MY NAP TIME! MY ROOM! And I tried to sleep, I tried to ignore her. But aside from the fact that I can't sleep with someone else in the room, even if she's my family member, I ALSO CAN'T SLEEP UNLESS IT'S COMPLETELY QUIET. I'm a very light sleeper. A slight noise is enough to keep me awake. And my aunt snores. =/ THIS IS RIDICULOUS. I kept screaming inside my mind, "RACHEL, YOU FUCKING IDIOT. WHY DIDN'T YOU LOCK THE FUCKING DOOR! YOU FUCKING IDIOT, FUCK YOU, RACHEL, YOU IDIOT." Yes, I actually do swear and curse. I just don't do it out loud. The good thing is, I hadn't fell asleep yet so I was still sane enough not to lose my temper. Otherwise, well, you don't want to know what I do when someone disturbs me when I'm sleeping. Trust me, you don't. UGHHHH. I'm just so mad at myself. I really am an effing idiot. WHY, OH WHY DIDN'T I CHECK THE DOOR TO CONFIRM THAT I HAVE LOCKED IT. UGHHHH. So since I couldn't sleep, I didn't. UGHHHHH. And I have to study for Bio class test tomorrow so yeah, can't sleep now. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. REALLY, I love her, I do, but this is abnormal. WHY WOULD YOU COME IN TO A ROOM WHEN YOU NORMALLY DON'T, AND SLEEP IN THE ROOM WHEN THERE IS ALREADY SOMEONE ELSE SLEEPING IN IT? That's what I meant. Thick. UGHHHHHH. When I told my Dad, even he was surprised and said "But she knows it's your naptime, why would she do that?" I DON'T KNOW. Even my own parents know never to bother me when I'm sleeping. Yes, even my parents who can be really scary at times.

My eyes were wide and I couldn't seem to focus my gaze during dinner just now. Then out of nowhere, I started giggling madly. HAHAHA. Scared my brother. Yeahhhhhhhhhh, high on sleep deprivation. 

Anyway, I have a LOT of things to blog about, because Li Peng told me to. HAHAHA. But I'm really REALLY busy this week, so after Monday kay. Anyway, byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Btw, I'm really not thinking straight right now. I really don't mean to be rude or disrespectful. Everyone knows I'm a very polite person especially to those older than me. I just need to get this out, or I might burst later on. Lack of sleep means lack of control, you know. I told my brother that if he needs to speak to me, WHISPER. Or I'm going to get a headache. UGH.